Sunday Without Her

I miss her.
I woke up this morning and first thing that cross my mind was..

"I want my girl right beside me now"

Almost everyday I will dream of her. Not everyday but 2 to 3 times every week.
She told me that when you dream means you're not sleeping well.
In my heart I was telling myself, if that's true, then I would rather not to sleep well everyday just to dream about you.

Everything went like what I planned before, go cut hair, go gym, tonight's father's day dinner.
The only thing that had similarity of those 3 is, I think about her in every occasion.

Didn't hear her voice at all the whole day. we only sms each other.
I so want to hear her voice.
I could only wait until 11 later. Only half an hour to go.

Can't wait 11 o clock to come.

More than a Prayer

Guess what?
We kissed today.
Something that I never expect today.

It happened during when we're singing in RedBox karaoke.
I knew in the middle of somewhere, the other person that came with us will surely go to toilet. I myself wanted to go but I waited, I knew I didn't wait for nothing.
Finally, like what I expected, he really got up and went to the washroom.
At that moment, I only expect that I could touch and hold her hands. Maybe a quick kiss on her cheek. But surprisingly, she leaned over to me and kiss me on the lips.
I suddenly regain that feeling that I lost quite some time ago. I remembered the feeling of kiss by her again today.

Yesterday I prayed that I could spend the whole day with her today. But God answered my prayer by giving me something even more meaningful.

After karaoke, we went to shopping at Esprit.
She wanted to buy a watch but required another 100 bucks to complete the voucher.
I would certainly want to help her to complete the 100 bucks but I wanted her to choose something for me to buy. But she feared that I might felted being forced by her to buy the 100 bucks.

"NO!"
"NEVER!"

I want her to know that she's wrong by thinking that!
If I could help her to complete or fulfill the things that she wants, it will be my most pleasure to do so because to be enable to fulfill your lover's wish is something very 'hang fuk" to do.

We went to our colleague's wedding lunch later on.
Everything seems happy but the lunch was kinda "little" This is how malay wedding lunch is all about. But I still felt happy because she's just beside me, no matter how 'little' or untasty the food is.

We're about to end the outing after finished the lunch.
One of our colleagues suggested that we go Queensbay to visit another colleague's son.
Of course I won't let go this opportunity to extend the outing. I suggested that we joined in as well. We did and we went to Queensbay for another round after Gurney this morning.

Everything looks great. She sat at the front passenger seat and I was at the driver seat. Ther person at behind seat ... "just forget it"
It feels like only both of us in the car like last time.

I am very happy today.

Saturday Outing

Tomorrow we're going to Redbox together.
I've been waiting for this so long.
Finally can go out with her even if the outing is not really that perfect because there's another person in it, but I am grateful of this outing. It is already much more than what I could get.

I'm not a good singer, but I insist of going because I can hear my lover sings, and I could sit by her side looking at her singing.

We'll be going to our colleague's wedding lunch after Redbox.
I wish the list could go on.
I wish we'll be going to another more place after that.
I wish to be with her the whole day.

My brother's birthday is tomorrow as well. My family had planned to have dinner to celebrate his birthday. But tomorrow is also my outing. I was thinking that I could postpone my brother's birthday dinner so that I could be with her until at night. I know I'm bad, but I did it because i want to see her more.

I'll pray tonight hoping my wish will come true.

Love Medicine

My love for you has always been my first priority.
Nothing is more important than that.

In the past few days, I've been secretly making a love portion for you.
I've put in my love, my thoughts and my feelings into that very special bottle.

Each scroll represent me when I'm not by your side. All the words inside the bottle is all that I want to tell you no matter I'm by your side or not. If can, I would like to continue telling you all these until you're age 1000.

If you really have 1000 years of age, I just want to have 999 years and 364 days, so that I never have to live a day without you.

When you need me, when you misses me, take one and always remember that I meant every single words in there.
Each words, each scroll.

BUT, do not OVERDOSE! Only maximum ONE per day.

I love You Soh Poh!