An Unexpected Day

Sorry that I've made you lost your mood. I was looking forward to today so much. Starting from yesterday when you told me that you going to come to look for me after your shopping, I was so excited and happy. Whole day, whole night my smile keep showing when I thought about it.

When I slept at night, I keep waking up because I'm too excited. The feeling is like the next day I'm going somewhere to play. I keep looking at the time. The worst thing is the time kept moving so slow. In my head, there's plenty of imagination that is going through my mind. I was thinking tomorrow when she comes, will I get a kiss from her? Will she bring me out for a turn? Even it's just a turn around my house will be great. Will she surprise me with something else? A lot of thinking was done yesterday night and I think this contribute partially to the sleepless night.

This morning when I wake, I keep sms her asking her has she went out? From the moment she step out from her house, it is a sign telling me she's coming to me. I waited anxiously and happily. trying to make the time goes by faster, I watch drama, fix computer, surf net ... but without realizing it, it's already 1.30PM. She's finally on her way to her dentist. But at that time I began to felt tired and eyes were dry due to yesterday's sleepless night and the over usage of computer this morning. I told her I wanted to get a nap. It would takes around 3 -4 hours for her to do all her things and that would have enough time for me to take a quick nap.

I received her sms at 4 PM and I just woke up. She said she's coming now and I was "unprepared" Sometimes it is very weird. I already started to prepare since yesterday night but because of those early preparation I end up unprepared also. Without wasting time, I wanted to quickly get up and bath, wash my face, wax my hair, etc etc to make me look great so that she can see me in great shape. But she still chatting with me about her teeth which the doctor told her that she grained her teeth at night which caused her teeth to be shorten. After she hung up, I quickly rush to the basin and wash my face. A bath is not possible anymore. She might be just around the corner. I don't want her to wait and I also don't want me to just walk out with my hair un-comb and pants un-changed. My phone rang and I know I'm dead.

Everything was done and by that time she already called me twice rushing me down. In my heart I was thinking maybe she wanted to bring me to a short turn thats why she's wanted to do it without wasting any time. I quickly rush down by the second call and was disappointed when I saw all her stuff was still in the front seats. I told myself it is ok because she did came to see me. She didn't say that she wanted to go for a ride or anything else because all these while it was me who thought it would happen. I did not blame her. Really. I know that she took great pressure to come and see me as well and I appreciate it. But I'm still human, the feeling of wanting her so much beside her car made me showed on my face that I'm sad and disappointed.

Soh Poh, I just want to let you know that if just now I wasn't sad or disappointed, and feel nothing at all, then I can tell you that I don't miss you at all. But I do. I felt sad I felt hurt when you didn't invite me in your car. I felt sad when you didn't prepare the front seat for me when you already know I will like to enter so much. I felt all these is because I love you soh poh. I didn't meant to tell you all these and make you feel that I blame you. I didn't. I really did not blame a single of you at all. I didn't. You are so precious to me how would I dare to hurt you?
When you told me you have no mood to go wash hair anymore, I was so kan cheong and called you straight away. I want you to feel happy and I know my mistake today make you no mood.

I'm sorry Soh Poh. It is always me who made everything become no mood. No matter who's right or wrong between us, I just want you to know that I will take up everything for you. That's what a Soh lou should always do for her Soh Poh right?

I'm sorry and I hope you could be happy back?

My Soh Poh My Shell

Everytime I go for a trip I will buy a keychain for my soh poh. This is one of it. I saw this key chain during my trip to cameron highlands. She is a Manchester United fans... So I wanted to buy this key chain for her. I have yet to give it to her. :P



Today my soh poh tell me that she wanted to drink 'my' milo. So here it is. I can't delivered it immediate to balik pulau but I can delivered it immediate here.
Today was hactic. Whole day was busy with work and meetings. Another meetings followed by another meetings until 5PM. A lot of work still pending. I felt so tired and tension. But I can handle it because my soh poh is always behind me supporting me. I know when I'm down or when I need support, she will always be the first one to cheer me up, encourage me to continue on. She is the source of my energy. She is my rest point. She is my petrol station.

A kiss back to my Soh Poh - Muaks~

A Joy is Not A Joy Without Her

Last Saturday was my Lou Tau's birthday. But I'll be going to Cameron Highlands on that day so we went for dinner on Friday instead.
We went to CRC restaurant to eat. A lot of people came that day. 11 person.
I promise my soh poh to let her see all the dishes that we ate that day. I want her to feel that she was with us during that time.
1st dish that we ate .. it's called 4 season I think but there's more that 5 things there. :p



























Next dish will be my favorite shark fins soup. I drank 2 bowl of the soup.
The 3rd Dish is called "Tong Ku Hai Som" This is her favorite. She likes to eat hai som because it can make her skin smooth and soft. I ate extra for her as well that night. :P













The 4th dish is .... -_-" Roasted Chicken It was sutted so fast until I'm unable to take a picture of it.













Here come the 5th dish - The Sia Kap Fish Cheng Chui













The 6th Dish is Chang Sou Mien (It taste like Wan Tan mee only)













7th Dish is the desert already - Ang Tau Sa .. You should like this.













8th Dish is Don't know call what. But inside is sweet sweet one.













The 9th and the last dish is Moon cake.














That was the dinner. I really hope she was there with me that time.
The next day was cameron day. This trip suppose to be a fun trip but turns out it didn't. Not because the place is not nice but because she's not together with me to share all these holidays.

When I was up there, it's cold and raining, I was thinking if she was there with me, I could hug her and go through the heavy rains together. But I think if she really was there, she might choose just to stay in the apartment because outside is wet and dirty. :p













Everything that I saw, everything that I ate, I will think of her. I wanted to buy everything for her.
This is one of them - her favorites
The JAGUNG!
It has yellow and white combination together. Very sweet and nice. I was thinking to buy back the raw jagung and pass it over to canteen to steam it for her to eat :p

I enjoyed the trip the first 10% only. The other 90% did not enjoy because I was missing her. No matter how many trips that I went, if she's not beside me, I won't enjoy it. Even how good the destination is. I will enjoy the trip 100% even if the trip is to Genting Highlands with her or Batu Feringgi.

Muaks!

I'm Your Soh Lou Angel

Just back from gym and after bath.
Her car got scratch and minor knock by a stupid car today at lunch time.
It's raining and she had to go out alone to check on her car while her "gentlemen" friend just sat inside the car waiting to laugh at her.
I'm so unhappy about that. Why let a girl out to see herself while it is raining heavily? Why let my soh poh got wet? I wouldn't let this happen if I was there that time. Definitely won't!

She sent me a picture of her car bumper showing me the scratches. It is deep and long.
The only way is to touch up the paint.
We bet 4D and Da Ma Cai today on her car number today hoping it would come out and she could do her bumper for free but almost.
It came out **98 instead of **65. Just 2 number missing and we're both are on our way to fix her bumper and one day shopping at Esprit :p

Soh Poh, suddenly i thought about yesterday when you sat at the back of the car and I'm infront seat. When we're going back to the office? Remember that you lean front on the seat that I'm sitting and I lean back and we're both listening to the songs and looking out at the window for the scenery and you were tickling on my arm? I can smell you and I can feel you even we were separated by the seat. I felt very comfortable with you so near me. I felt so relax and calm when I smell you. Only you alone who can make me feel like this.

Yeah, that's about it. I just thought you should know about this, how I felt at that time :D
Don't be sad or geram over the scratches ok? Just always remember that I will always, always be by your side guarding you like an angel. I will always find ways to make you happy.

I love you my dear.
Muaks.

Your Soh Lou.
Always.

Excited match for her Excited Day for me

Really did not expect her to read my blog yesterday. I'm surprise she read it last night.
This morning before I wake, there's already a sms waiting for me. It's from her.
She knows about I'm sleeping @ 1.30am yesterday night. I thought she'll only read it during Monday.

I watched all the dvds movies that I bought yesterday from bukit jambul complex. Very few sms from her today. I just miss her. Wanted to hear her voice.
I continued on watching my dvds to shift my attention.

Tonight there's going to be badminton match between Lim Chong Wei and Lin Dan. I know she's very excited about it. I really hope I could watch with her tonight, sitting by her side.
But it's ok, I will sms her while I watch the match. This way I will feel that I'm just next to her.

I get to see her new hair tomorrow. I'm as excited as she was when she wants to see the badminton match :P

Deviated Routine

It's Saturday and Sunday again. It just feels too fast.
I don't like weekends. It makes me feels like it's just me. I can't see her.

Today I wake at 11 something. Look at my phone but didn't see any sms from her.
A little bit disappointed but it's ok. I know she think of me the first thing in the morning when she wakes.
I smsed and let her know that I'm awake. But no reply.
I continue on my day like usual. Watch drama. But my supply of drama is coming to an end. New ones are still in progress of downloading. I don't want to stay at home doing nothing because I will think of her more.

Went down and wash my car. After wash I noticed that some dirts can't come out. So I decided to send my car to polish. Something to do for today.
She was at the crystal point saloon doing her hair.
I went to the polish centre and put my car there. The shop owner told me that it's going to takes around 5 hours to complete the whole thing.
It was just 2.40PM that time. The shop locate just opposite sun shine.
Nobody to call to fetch as everybody is busy. No choice and have to walk to bukit jambul complex and back home alone. Weather was quite hot at the beginning but was ok at the end.

I did thought want to walk to crystal point. :P
But I can't go in anyway. :(
Just miss her too much.

Everything ended like the way it is and those walking contribute a little to my exercise.
Can't wait till Monday to see her and her 600 bucks hair.

Muaks.
p/s - :p I know the time ok. I'm going straight to bed now ok?. :P Good Night Soh Poh.

Sudden Urge

At work right now. You are in training. A lot of work to do right now but somehow I just miss you.
I know you're just very near but I still miss you. Maybe because I felt sleepy and just want to hug you. I miss hugging you standing. Something that we didn't do quite sometime now.

Just wanted to tell you this.
Muaks~!

Weekend Loneliness

Last Friday she wasn't at work. This is the first time she didn't go to work the whole day. This is the first time I'm at office and she's not the whole day.
Felt a bit different. I missed her the whole day.

Breakfast without her on the table doesn't feel right.
Her grandma passed away and she's busy with the preparation of the funeral.
At first I thought Friday, Saturday, and Sunday I won't be hearing from her. But she did call me from time to time. I'm glad.

She must be very tired these 3 days. I wished I was beside her these whole 3 days. I wished to be part of what she's going through. I want to be part of her life.

Company's business is slowing down now because it's end of the year. OT is cut and I have less work and more time now which indirectly makes me think of her more during my free time.

I can see her again tomorrow. Can't wait!