Sorry that I've made you lost your mood. I was looking forward to today so much. Starting from yesterday when you told me that you going to come to look for me after your shopping, I was so excited and happy. Whole day, whole night my smile keep showing when I thought about it.
When I slept at night, I keep waking up because I'm too excited. The feeling is like the next day I'm going somewhere to play. I keep looking at the time. The worst thing is the time kept moving so slow. In my head, there's plenty of imagination that is going through my mind. I was thinking tomorrow when she comes, will I get a kiss from her? Will she bring me out for a turn? Even it's just a turn around my house will be great. Will she surprise me with something else? A lot of thinking was done yesterday night and I think this contribute partially to the sleepless night.
This morning when I wake, I keep sms her asking her has she went out? From the moment she step out from her house, it is a sign telling me she's coming to me. I waited anxiously and happily. trying to make the time goes by faster, I watch drama, fix computer, surf net ... but without realizing it, it's already 1.30PM. She's finally on her way to her dentist. But at that time I began to felt tired and eyes were dry due to yesterday's sleepless night and the over usage of computer this morning. I told her I wanted to get a nap. It would takes around 3 -4 hours for her to do all her things and that would have enough time for me to take a quick nap.
I received her sms at 4 PM and I just woke up. She said she's coming now and I was "unprepared" Sometimes it is very weird. I already started to prepare since yesterday night but because of those early preparation I end up unprepared also. Without wasting time, I wanted to quickly get up and bath, wash my face, wax my hair, etc etc to make me look great so that she can see me in great shape. But she still chatting with me about her teeth which the doctor told her that she grained her teeth at night which caused her teeth to be shorten. After she hung up, I quickly rush to the basin and wash my face. A bath is not possible anymore. She might be just around the corner. I don't want her to wait and I also don't want me to just walk out with my hair un-comb and pants un-changed. My phone rang and I know I'm dead.
Everything was done and by that time she already called me twice rushing me down. In my heart I was thinking maybe she wanted to bring me to a short turn thats why she's wanted to do it without wasting any time. I quickly rush down by the second call and was disappointed when I saw all her stuff was still in the front seats. I told myself it is ok because she did came to see me. She didn't say that she wanted to go for a ride or anything else because all these while it was me who thought it would happen. I did not blame her. Really. I know that she took great pressure to come and see me as well and I appreciate it. But I'm still human, the feeling of wanting her so much beside her car made me showed on my face that I'm sad and disappointed.
Soh Poh, I just want to let you know that if just now I wasn't sad or disappointed, and feel nothing at all, then I can tell you that I don't miss you at all. But I do. I felt sad I felt hurt when you didn't invite me in your car. I felt sad when you didn't prepare the front seat for me when you already know I will like to enter so much. I felt all these is because I love you soh poh. I didn't meant to tell you all these and make you feel that I blame you. I didn't. I really did not blame a single of you at all. I didn't. You are so precious to me how would I dare to hurt you?
When you told me you have no mood to go wash hair anymore, I was so kan cheong and called you straight away. I want you to feel happy and I know my mistake today make you no mood.
I'm sorry Soh Poh. It is always me who made everything become no mood. No matter who's right or wrong between us, I just want you to know that I will take up everything for you. That's what a Soh lou should always do for her Soh Poh right?
I'm sorry and I hope you could be happy back?
When I slept at night, I keep waking up because I'm too excited. The feeling is like the next day I'm going somewhere to play. I keep looking at the time. The worst thing is the time kept moving so slow. In my head, there's plenty of imagination that is going through my mind. I was thinking tomorrow when she comes, will I get a kiss from her? Will she bring me out for a turn? Even it's just a turn around my house will be great. Will she surprise me with something else? A lot of thinking was done yesterday night and I think this contribute partially to the sleepless night.
This morning when I wake, I keep sms her asking her has she went out? From the moment she step out from her house, it is a sign telling me she's coming to me. I waited anxiously and happily. trying to make the time goes by faster, I watch drama, fix computer, surf net ... but without realizing it, it's already 1.30PM. She's finally on her way to her dentist. But at that time I began to felt tired and eyes were dry due to yesterday's sleepless night and the over usage of computer this morning. I told her I wanted to get a nap. It would takes around 3 -4 hours for her to do all her things and that would have enough time for me to take a quick nap.
I received her sms at 4 PM and I just woke up. She said she's coming now and I was "unprepared" Sometimes it is very weird. I already started to prepare since yesterday night but because of those early preparation I end up unprepared also. Without wasting time, I wanted to quickly get up and bath, wash my face, wax my hair, etc etc to make me look great so that she can see me in great shape. But she still chatting with me about her teeth which the doctor told her that she grained her teeth at night which caused her teeth to be shorten. After she hung up, I quickly rush to the basin and wash my face. A bath is not possible anymore. She might be just around the corner. I don't want her to wait and I also don't want me to just walk out with my hair un-comb and pants un-changed. My phone rang and I know I'm dead.
Everything was done and by that time she already called me twice rushing me down. In my heart I was thinking maybe she wanted to bring me to a short turn thats why she's wanted to do it without wasting any time. I quickly rush down by the second call and was disappointed when I saw all her stuff was still in the front seats. I told myself it is ok because she did came to see me. She didn't say that she wanted to go for a ride or anything else because all these while it was me who thought it would happen. I did not blame her. Really. I know that she took great pressure to come and see me as well and I appreciate it. But I'm still human, the feeling of wanting her so much beside her car made me showed on my face that I'm sad and disappointed.
Soh Poh, I just want to let you know that if just now I wasn't sad or disappointed, and feel nothing at all, then I can tell you that I don't miss you at all. But I do. I felt sad I felt hurt when you didn't invite me in your car. I felt sad when you didn't prepare the front seat for me when you already know I will like to enter so much. I felt all these is because I love you soh poh. I didn't meant to tell you all these and make you feel that I blame you. I didn't. I really did not blame a single of you at all. I didn't. You are so precious to me how would I dare to hurt you?
When you told me you have no mood to go wash hair anymore, I was so kan cheong and called you straight away. I want you to feel happy and I know my mistake today make you no mood.
I'm sorry Soh Poh. It is always me who made everything become no mood. No matter who's right or wrong between us, I just want you to know that I will take up everything for you. That's what a Soh lou should always do for her Soh Poh right?
I'm sorry and I hope you could be happy back?
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