It's Saturday today. Another weekend.
I'm being tough. I tried my best to be tough.
I'm scared. I'm questioning myself on my ability to go through the year end holidays.
Can I survive that?
She doesn't hint anything. I guessed it's just me alone this Christmas.
I'm going to start on-leave this coming 24th, 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th. When I looked on these dates, I feels so sad and lonely. I'm going to go through all these days by myself.
If normal days, I still think I can go through it. But this time it's holiday season. It's not only her who is going to have holidays, Other "people" too.
I barely got through when she went KL last year during New year. But at least she's with me during Christmas.
"Sai some more lar .. "
That is her last sms today until now. I kept looking onto my phone. My mind kept wondering around guessing what is she doing right now. Image of her flashing through my mind every minute every second.
I actually wanted to go out today but changed my mind when I thought of what if I met her with someone on the shopping mall? I really couldn't stand that 'slap'.
My heart is going to collapse straight.
I Misses her hugs. It's been a while since I feel her hugs. I miss her so much.
I miss my Soh poh.
Hoping to receive her sms soon.
Can't hold any longer.
I'm being tough. I tried my best to be tough.
I'm scared. I'm questioning myself on my ability to go through the year end holidays.
Can I survive that?
She doesn't hint anything. I guessed it's just me alone this Christmas.
I'm going to start on-leave this coming 24th, 25th, 26th, 27th, 28th. When I looked on these dates, I feels so sad and lonely. I'm going to go through all these days by myself.
If normal days, I still think I can go through it. But this time it's holiday season. It's not only her who is going to have holidays, Other "people" too.
I barely got through when she went KL last year during New year. But at least she's with me during Christmas.
"Sai some more lar .. "
That is her last sms today until now. I kept looking onto my phone. My mind kept wondering around guessing what is she doing right now. Image of her flashing through my mind every minute every second.
I actually wanted to go out today but changed my mind when I thought of what if I met her with someone on the shopping mall? I really couldn't stand that 'slap'.
My heart is going to collapse straight.
I Misses her hugs. It's been a while since I feel her hugs. I miss her so much.
I miss my Soh poh.
Hoping to receive her sms soon.
Can't hold any longer.
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