A Promise

Treating the person whom I loved the most in my life as only friend?
Looking into her eyes everyday pretending that she's just a friend?
Continue like nothing has ever happened between us before and talk to each other like a friend?
I can't do this at all. I can't.
I can't treat the girl that I loved so much as only a friend!
I can't!

She asked me for lunch just now, and I said "no".
There was a moment when I wanted to say "Yes" but I didn't.
This is the first time I said "no" to her.
Having breakfast and lunch with her is what I'm dying for everyday but I rejected her today.
My heart was in pain when I said that. I don't want to but I know I have to. I have to.
I wanted to eat with her so much! I wanted to spend the time with her so much! I really do. I really do, but I know I shouldn't!

Do you know each time you said thank you to me, you're stabbing my heart once?
Do you know being treat like some stranger by your loved ones felt so pain?

I think of you every seconds.
I waited for your sms everyday.
I waited for your call each day at 11 o clock.
I said good night to you every night before I goes to sleep.
I hug and kiss you every night.

Each time I heard songs that we both shared, my tears will drop, my heart will be sadden.
I will think of you so much. I wanted to reach for you. I wanted to call you.

But, I knew I shouldn't.
I had promised to leave your life alone without me anymore in it.
And I will keep that promise because I love you.