Loneliness, a word use to describe an emotional state or a powerful feeling of emptiness and isolation. That's the meaning from wikipedia.
I've been experiencing this 'loneliness' today.
Yesterday wasn't so bad because I only could not see her but her sms and phone call was still around. I received her sms first thing in the morning when I waked yesterday. She kept sms and call me yesterday, I was happy but at the same time felt sad. Somehow I know the next day won't be the same anymore.
Today I woke 10am. Usually she'll sms me around 1.30pm. So I forced myself back to bed until then, waiting for her sms to come asking me ..
"What are you doing now?"
But it didn't come. As usual I sms her saying..
"Good Morning"
but there's no reply. That moment onwards I knew today will be hard. I continued doing my things, watching drama, wash car, hoping time will fly by fast.
I do not know why but every time when reached 6 to 7 pm I will feel very lonely. Today I went out and took my car for a spin. Been driving with no direction, just trying to skip the evening mood. But suddenly, I received her sms.
"Later going out eat, sai lou tomorrow back liao.."
Even the message didn't really mean anything, it made me smile.
Maybe somehow deep in my heart I've been thinking that if she's going to eat dinner with her sai lou and family meaning that she won't be with "him". Maybe that's where my smile came from.
Talked on the phone tonight and she been whispering. It's been a while she never used her real voice to talk at night. I miss that voice so much.
Tonight I ask her to speak with her real voice, at least one word is more than enough for me. She did and I can feel it in my heart.
She asked me ..
"Like that also can? .. "
Yes, like that also can. Every word from her meant a lot to me. My world will only spin when she's inside.
Tonight I will sleep well dear.
Good Night. Muaks!
I've been experiencing this 'loneliness' today.
Yesterday wasn't so bad because I only could not see her but her sms and phone call was still around. I received her sms first thing in the morning when I waked yesterday. She kept sms and call me yesterday, I was happy but at the same time felt sad. Somehow I know the next day won't be the same anymore.
Today I woke 10am. Usually she'll sms me around 1.30pm. So I forced myself back to bed until then, waiting for her sms to come asking me ..
"What are you doing now?"
But it didn't come. As usual I sms her saying..
"Good Morning"
but there's no reply. That moment onwards I knew today will be hard. I continued doing my things, watching drama, wash car, hoping time will fly by fast.
I do not know why but every time when reached 6 to 7 pm I will feel very lonely. Today I went out and took my car for a spin. Been driving with no direction, just trying to skip the evening mood. But suddenly, I received her sms.
"Later going out eat, sai lou tomorrow back liao.."
Even the message didn't really mean anything, it made me smile.
Maybe somehow deep in my heart I've been thinking that if she's going to eat dinner with her sai lou and family meaning that she won't be with "him". Maybe that's where my smile came from.
Talked on the phone tonight and she been whispering. It's been a while she never used her real voice to talk at night. I miss that voice so much.
Tonight I ask her to speak with her real voice, at least one word is more than enough for me. She did and I can feel it in my heart.
She asked me ..
"Like that also can? .. "
Yes, like that also can. Every word from her meant a lot to me. My world will only spin when she's inside.
Tonight I will sleep well dear.
Good Night. Muaks!
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