Greatest Regret

Friday night, normally I would be having dinner with her this day. I would drive her around and hold her hands tightly.

But it has changed. Her voice is the only thing that is left. And I'm not sure when I'm going to loose that too. I will not let her suffer. I definitely can't see her in pain. I can't let her not happy. I don't want to be her pressure.

I love her. She is my first priority. Always.
I will do anything as long as she feels comfortable with.
I won't lie, it's going to be very very hard for me. But I'm willing to take all that for her. I'm willing to take up the pressure from her. I'm willing to be alone so that she could concentrate on her relationship.

This is the first time I sacrifice myself so much for a girl.
She's not just some girl. She's my love.
She always asked me if I treat my ex the same as her?

I want to marry you soh poh! I want to spent the rest of my life with you soh poh! I want to share my sadness and happiness with you soh poh!

Well, I did say I want to share my sadness and happiness with my ex before. But I didn't say I want to marry her. I did not say I want to spend the rest of my life with her.
So do you still think that you're the same with her?
I would give my whole life for you.
Just for you alone.

Even if I had to take up the greatest suffer but in return can make you happy, I would say I'm willing and ready to do that for you.

It's been a while I did not kiss you.
I miss that so much. There's so much love that I want to give you.
I want to hug you when you're sad.
I want to be by your side when your face is pain.
I want to lend my shoulder to you when you're tired.
I want to be there to let you scold and hug when you're frustrated of work.

There were many regrets in my life before, but ..

"Will you marry me soh poh?"

This question will be my greatest regret in life because I will never have a chance to ask you that forever and ever.