Punishment Day 1

Today was tough. I've been struggling to go through the day. Whole day without reply from her. Only a glimpse of her during breakfast and also after lunch when she's back. I could only see her back walking towards the office. But that glimpse supplied me enough energy to go another mile.

There was a few times when I did want to go up stairs and find her. to take a look at her. I know if I do that, she'll be angry more so end up I did not. All I could do was just keep on sending her sms hoping that she could reply me.

Like I said, today was very tough but it became more easier every time when she did something for me. During breakfast, she left me a bread. She took her own plates. Both of that action made me survive the first half of the day.

Today was a punishment, and she was not suppose to sms or call me at all for the next three days. Even if I survived the first half, I still have another 2nd half to go. At this time, I unexpectedly received her email saying that she won't be joining for lunch today. It's weird, at normal days, I would felt unhappy and sad because I couldn't see her during lunch time but today was different, That email appeared when I least expected it. I was happy when I saw her name appeared in my INBOX. That made me survived another lunch time.

But that was only sufficient for lunch time. How about the second half? I was back at the office around 1.10Pm. First thing that I did when I reached the carpark was looked for her car. Noticed that she hasn’t come back yet. So I kept pretending walking outside my cubicle hoping that I could at least see her when she's back from lunch. Even a 1 second glimpse was also enough for me to last the next horrible hours. Finally like what I expected, I saw her coming back but only managed to see her back. Well. that's more than enough for a guy who is still under punishment.

But second half was really tiring and havoc. I'm so tired and pressured with all the work. I wanted so much for her to be at my side that time so that I could lay my head on her. I smsed her telling her that but there was no reply. But I'm very sure that she was also thinking of me and hoping that she could come over right away to hug me even she did not reply my sms.

I miss her.

I couldn't stand it anymore and smsed her asking her if I could call her tonight.

I did not expect any reply as usual but she surprised me again.

she replied

" Forget the punishment already?"

Well, doesn't really sound good but at least she replied.

I thought that I could sleep without hearing her voice but I can't. I decided to call her hoping she could pick up. But she didn't.

I was sad. I knew today was punishment day. I knew I deserved it.

But surprises keep coming in a row.
She smsed me saying good night to me and that she's going to sleep now.
I was satisfied with this sms. At least something for me to go through the night.

Well, it doesn't end there. She called! I was so happy when I see her name appeared on the handphone that I was holding. Quickly I pick up and when I listened to her voice, my hearts calmed.

I felt the way she felt when I did not sms her. I know my fault already. Today was horrible.
I can't imagine I got another 2 days to go.
I hope that I could be forgiven a little earlier.

Punishment Day 1 ends.