Love Failed

As usual, I stared at the screen for a moment. My mind is blank about what I'm to blog nowadays. This blog was meant for us. But there's nothing for me to write about us anymore. Our relationship had hang on at a very very cold place now and is waiting to be freeze to death. I can only stand there and watch the fire goes off. I couldn't do anything but to see her walk away from my arms. She can't do anything as well but only to see me letting go my arms on her. There's no right for us to say anything! Our love are true but at the wrong moment. We loved each other but we couldn't spend the rest of our lives together. Our love began with the taste of sweetness but is going to end with the taste of bitterness for life. How much more can I do? How long more could I hold her in my arms? Is this life? Why is it so painful? At least I'm sure that this is the life that I had. Is life really that unfair?

During my secondary school, my classmate had asked me a question, "How do you know if you really love someone?" Well, I know damn well how to answer that question. I told her, if you really loved that person, then you'll always think of her first on everything you do in your life. You'll always worried about her safety. You'll always wanted to share your joy with her. When she's sad, you'll try many many ways just to make her smile back. You'll even sacrifice everything just for her. You'll want to spend the rest of your life with her.
If all the requirement above is met, then you'll know you really love that person and I know I do.

Love should be pure. Love shouldn't involve other things in it. But sad to say, this world is so unfair. This world is full of disappointments. The higher hopes, the harder you hit. The deeper the love, the bigger the hole is going to be at your heart. I learned that loving with full heart is just not enough. It's just not enough. Love failed me and I'm scared to trust on it anymore.