Dumb me, I did the most terrible things today.
I lied to her.
That is the very last thing that I ever want to do on her. And I did it today.
She called me, I was still out with my friends/classmates that were celebrating birthday for me.
Chat with her and noticed that she doesn't really sounded happy. I knew she felt bad that she couldn't be with me the whole day today to celebrate my birthday with me. She was relieved when she knew that my friends were going to invite me out for dinner.
I just want her to know that yesterday midnight was very meaningful to me and I really appreciate it so much. I really do!
The mistake comes when suddenly I decided to tell her that I already open the cake that she bought for me. I knew she was going to asked me the same question too. That is why I told her first. I knew she'll be disappointed if I tell her I didn't open the cake at all. I was busy editing and printing our pictures the whole day and thinking that I can see the cake tonight when I'm opening it with my family. Without thinking it through, I just answered:
"YES, I opened the cake"
This 5 words is the most regretting words that came out from my mouth that night.
She hanged up and minutes later I received her sms saying:
"2 disappointments: One, you lie; Two; you did not open the cake and see even I get all the way long to buy it for you. If you really appreciate, I think it deserved at least a glance. Why you can lie to me and can say it out so gently when you're not saying the truth. It hurts my feelings and I don't know how to trust you now..."
This sms had my heart totally crushed. I was still with my friends and I totally can't put a smile on my face anymore at that moment. I felt so sad and bad. Why did I lie?? Why must I lie??
I kept asking myself this question.
I lied to her.
That is the very last thing that I ever want to do on her. And I did it today.
She called me, I was still out with my friends/classmates that were celebrating birthday for me.
Chat with her and noticed that she doesn't really sounded happy. I knew she felt bad that she couldn't be with me the whole day today to celebrate my birthday with me. She was relieved when she knew that my friends were going to invite me out for dinner.
I just want her to know that yesterday midnight was very meaningful to me and I really appreciate it so much. I really do!
The mistake comes when suddenly I decided to tell her that I already open the cake that she bought for me. I knew she was going to asked me the same question too. That is why I told her first. I knew she'll be disappointed if I tell her I didn't open the cake at all. I was busy editing and printing our pictures the whole day and thinking that I can see the cake tonight when I'm opening it with my family. Without thinking it through, I just answered:
"YES, I opened the cake"
This 5 words is the most regretting words that came out from my mouth that night.
She hanged up and minutes later I received her sms saying:
"2 disappointments: One, you lie; Two; you did not open the cake and see even I get all the way long to buy it for you. If you really appreciate, I think it deserved at least a glance. Why you can lie to me and can say it out so gently when you're not saying the truth. It hurts my feelings and I don't know how to trust you now..."
This sms had my heart totally crushed. I was still with my friends and I totally can't put a smile on my face anymore at that moment. I felt so sad and bad. Why did I lie?? Why must I lie??
I kept asking myself this question.
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