I Regret

She did not answer my calls.
She did not reply my sms.

I did it again. I raised my voice to her again.
But this time it's unintentional. I have no mean to raise my voice to her at all.

It all happened during today's lunch at the Breeks. We were all having lunch there and when I finished my food the plate is empty. At this moment, the waitress came and asked a silly questions.

"Do you still want it?"

She helped me answered "No"

I jokingly told my other colleague that is the waitress blind? What a silly question to asked.
Suddenly she shouted and ask me..

"What? I thought you don't want already?"

She thought I was talking about her ..
Actually I was referring to the waitress. And thanks to my itchy mouth, I added with my voice raised ...

"Why you shouted just now?"

This is where everything started and I'm still unaware of the coming storm until when she asked for her car key which I helped her to keep. Her face was as dark as the charcoal and I know I'm definitely in deep deep shit, again.

At that moment, I knew instantly my mistake and I regret it. But it's all too late.

As soon as I reached office, quickly I surrender myself by writing it in chinese words hoping that she could forgive me by looking at my sincerity.

I know it's my mistake. I know I should have not raised my voice today. Can you please forgive me?

There was no response from her at all. I tried calling her desk phone and her voice was still in angry mode. There's nothing I can do more but to wait until tonight to see if she's willing to answer my phone call.

The day ended and night rules.
SMSs sent, phone calls made but she's not answering it.

She even canceled my calls. My heart broke into pieces each time she did that.
What's more pain than got rejected by the person you loved the most?

Tonight will be long.