I was in KL for my US Visa interview and that means I'm away over 400KM from her. Looking at the signboard, every KM that passed me during the journey to KL was killing me. Each time every 1 KM passed, I'm further another 1 KM from her. The feeling was unbearable.
Reached KL and my journey started. Traveled everywhere all just by myself for the first 2 days. I could feel the loneliness, the experience of being alone was not much of a fun. I missed her so much.
While walking around shopping complex, I saw this and bought it for u
s, one for me and one for her. I'll take the girl and I'll give her the guy. So that we could still see each other even when we're unable to ...Everywhere that I went, during interview, sitting LRT, having lunch, shopping, walking, resting, watching movie, drinking, with my friends, there was always a thought in my heart whispering, hoping ..
"Wouldn't it be good if she's here right now..?"
Well finally on Saturday, I get to meet all my friends. Finally I thought the feeling of missing her would be minimized as I'll just have fun and forget a little about her a while. But ... I realized that it wouldn't work either and the plan failed miserably.
All the while I thought if one day when she's not by my side anymore, I'll still have my friends. I thought I could just forget her by putting myself deeply into other activities, I thought maybe I can do it, but after this trip it confirmed that ..
No matter what I do, no matter I'm with who, no matter where am I, no matter how far I am from her, my heart will be always be thinking and missing her every second, everyday of my life.
She isn't just anybody else that I could just drop and move on with my life pretending like nothings ever happened before, all I know is she's special and she's the person that I ever love most.
Now and Forever.
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